Nothing but a nightmare (strange__days) wrote,
Nothing but a nightmare
strange__days

someone hit the rewind button on my life....and i hate it.

WHEN MY FIST CLENCHES, CRACK IT OPEN. BEFORE I USE IT TO LOSE MY COOL.
WHEN I SMILE, TELL ME SOME BAD NEW. BEFORE I LAUGH AND ACT LIKE A FOOL.
AND IF I SWALLOW ANYTHING EVIL, PUT YOUR FINGERS DOWN MY THROAT.
IF I SHIVER, PLEASE GIVE ME A BLANKET.
KEEP ME WARM LET ME WEAR YOUR COAT.
no one knows what it's like to be the bad man, to be the sad man. Behind blue eyes.---the who
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Sometimes I hate so much. When people do not like your presense, you arent pretty enough or whatever you do wrong, some richer prettier and more social person seems to find you the fucking pit of garbage not worth a fucking thing. Not everyone. Just these looks of shit, throwing things, oh that girl is ugly, shes fat, shes slow, whatever it is its SO FUNNY and people as a whole have to dwell on the imperfections of one. whether it be drugs they do and how bad they are, or how funny it would be to put this person up for humiliation and sadness so we can get a great laugh, or lets throw this at the ugly girl who doesnt talk, its funny. No one has feelings right? If you arent popular, skinny, pretty, and fucking everything that society wants people to be you don't deserve any sympythy since you don't have feelings. It isnt really like this....people don't always do this, but I see it so much around me and even in my own group. People don't like me either. I don't know if its the drugs I did in the past, the guys I was with, the way I present myself, my weight, my face, my personality, but so many people think I am lower than shit and I just see how fucking bad it can be. I wish people just stopped getting off on the pain of others and ignored it. Not be their friend, not be nice, just nothing...>FUCKING NOTHING. I hope I was never like this to one person. If I was a bitch, it's only cuz I didnt like them over a certain understandable thing, but I never ridicule anyone. Some things are funny until reality can hit. I hate society and it's images sent around how everyone should look, live, eat, sleep, and love. Beautiful is a DD size chest and pretty hair, a nice face, 36, 24, 36, models, actors, everyone is just a person. why can't the world just be people and not people striving to become this.

I will go back to my own fantasy land now...

i got fatter.

I <3 brian. I hate school.


___Stacki
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